Loss of Freedom

When in our relationship was it wrong for me to say no. "No I dont want to go [someplace]," is really the only time I say no. Usualy I have a good reason, but do I need one. I may just not be in the mood to anywhere. We have a super-nice house wich cost a ton, lets use it. Maby I dont like shopping, I mean we do have E-bay, and they bring it to your house. Maby we went some where for 8 (no exsageration there) hours yesterday and I want to stay home today. Maby I feel our budget is kind of tight and I want to stay home where its already paid for and does not cost extra (i.e. gas {$2.19 a gallon}, food, etc...).

What makes it bad is when I do so "no," her phsyical posture and composure changes. I ask for a reason why is it so bad to stay here and I get no reply. To any female readers here is priceless advice; not answering a question is worse then any possible answer. The guy will think its the worse possible things and go nuts. Just answer it with anything.

Secondly most guys are homebodies when they have a house. Its our castle, we want to work on it and enjoy it. If we go somewhere Tuesday, dont expect to go anywhere Wensday. If a guy has plans to goto the park and play a few hours of basketball (75% of the reason is to get into better shape for you), dont say "We have less then three hours untill we play we can drive the hour round trip get my hour hair cut and have the hour wait, it is aperfict universe correct?"

Here is how a guy thinks. "One hour round trip, with triffic we need to alot two hours minimum, hour haircut, hour wait we shoudl alot three hours 'just in-case', oh and do we have to goto the $75 parlor when the one in town is only $35 (witch really drives us nuts because we use the barbershop near work that cost $8 including a $2 tip.)"

I added my fiances "live journal" to the links, I love her but the feeling is not always mutual.

25 and Routine

It has happened. I have reached that age where I am too young to be routine and too old to be wild. Today is day two of my my first nine day vaction (five of witch are paid), spring break, Easter sunday as it where. I am sitting at home not knowing what to do. My fiance is at work until five and that only leaves me a few hours to of "me" time. I cant think of a darned thing to do. I tried reading, I tried video games, I played with the dog, its to nasty out side to exersice (like I would anyway).
I am completly at a lost. It kind of makes me wish I had not given up pornography. Maby I am still shaken by last nights series of dreams. Its funny, no horror movie can shake me, but a dream about "poster daemons" (don't ask) wakes me up in the middle of the night.
And worst of all Matt once again has failed in his promise to call back. What a PUD! I really need to take him behind the barn and be like "You see this! Its a telephone! Alexander Grahm Bell worked his tail off to invent this. Its really quite easy, you have to push a maximum of 8 buttons. My number then send. Heck if its ben recent just call a recent call. I know I am not on speed dial, Matt has all fourty spaces reserved for his co-workers. He only has 12 co-workers, one for home, one for cell and the rest IN CASE THEY ADD EMPLOYEES!!!!!. I dont even know my work's phone number. Your time off is supposed to be your TIME-OFF!!!!. STOP THE MATTNESS!!! (yes I know it is mispelled it is supossed to be a pun, jerk)
Whoa. Come back M.C. Deap breath. Anyways download RYL2, it is free at torrentreactor.net (wuth virtual every game ever) its really cool.

M.C.


"You found me beautiful once." "Baby you got a whole lota ugly!"

When in Rome...

After seeing how my fiance and life long friend find it apropiate to post their daily (well almost daily) thoughts for the world to see, I considered this concept. Following my friends example I decided to make a list.

1. This may be very therapeutic at times, like a journal I began a few years ago and have only ventured a few entries.

2. I will have to ponder wither I wish to have my fiance be able to view this. I may wish to rant and rave. If I do that it may help to have her know my thoughts. On the other hand my fiance is rarely Rant and Rave material and she does treat me rather nicely.

3. This could be dangerous in that complete strangers could learn licit detail of my life. I could also inadvertently offend those near and dear to me.

4. It could be a nice way to realy offend those who deserve the offence.

5. Since I have written this much so far, I may as well give it a shot.


P.S. My schools awesome pop-up blocker has just blocked the spell check. Apologies for the inconvenience.